: :what the hell!?!: :

today... one of those unimaginable things that could happen happened! dismissal time, i saw carlo waiting at the door of my classroom and talking to one of my friends. as i was walking out of the door with jarl to go to the 5th floor he called me. first with my 1st name then with my middle name and when i didn't acknowledged him he called me by my nickname so i looked at him juz to shut him up.

and then if it's not freaky enough of him to call me by all my my names he said, "hi! mustah? ganda mo ngayon ha!"

what the hell.

somehow any compliment that comes from his mouth and directed to me looks to me like an insult. but the others heard it's a compliment. ok, so him being nice to MOI? yea ryt! so after he said that, i made a really hard effort to not answer him back. the comeback i was goin to say runs along the lines like... uh nvm, it's very bad to say it here... so it's best to ignore his existence! and my friends had betrayed me! they were giggling like mad! and the others were shouting, "omg! u guys talked! what a miracle!" and "yikkkeeee!!! kilig!!!" rigghhhtt...

fan-bloody-tastic

what has this world come to?

need time to process something to my mind and a good plan to torture him back. go make some demented scheme to make him pay.

oh, and i will!

: :the breakup diaries: :

has anybdy seen my self-esteem?

i think i may have tossed her out on her nice, decent, well-mannered ass in the trashcan, together with the empty bottle of Gato Negro Merlot i swallowed to the last drop last night. a girl can do that-- lose things when she's had a little too much to drink. and i don't drink. well, ok, but only when the occasion calls for it. like new year's eve, or at the annual barkada out-of-town thingie which legitimizes drunken bonding.

or now that Itos(short 4 carlitos), the guy i've been thinking about/breathing for every waking hour of this past yr, has told me, "this isn't working." like our relationship  was the windup toy from the happy meal- the hopping hamburger he was so aliw (fun) with in the beginning. when it suddenly refused to walk/roll/jump, he didn't want it anymore.

it wasan occasion that literally begged for inebriation, if u asked me. medical science has confirmed that alcohol is indeed a great anesthetic. and boy, i so don't need to feel this pain ryt now. bottoms up, then.

lolz ok so that's juz an excerpt from this book i love! it's juz the beginning and it gets interesting! and it's juz pg-13! it's actually funny and cool! this is juz 1/8 of the beginning! and when i brought this 2 sch earlier, my classmates went gaga for it! they were all tryin to borrow it and read it! and the boys were totally clueless! lolz gotta love this book! hehe...

: :changing tides: :

i haven't been feeling well lately... actually, since the start of this sch yr, i've been feelin pretty sick! argh...

oh gosh... carlo's goin to be on duty this thursday! and nix is goin to be in charge with him! ok... so carlo(my enemy)+nix(my bestfriend)=trouble! you see... nix kinda has this "plan" to make the two of us be on speaking terms with each other! ooo-kaayy... so that's like after a million years? possible but very close to impossible! and i have this tugging feeling that it would be me ending up embarassed after whatever nix has in plan for this "get together". and when she asks them to volunteer, she'll pick him.

im dead.

screw volunteerism. screw cat.

i juz read this really cool book written by maya o. calica! the editor-in-chief of seventeen phil and was the editor-in-chief of cosmopolitan phil and candy! it's a novel about breaking up, making out, shaping up and every little gritty, sanity-breaking detail in between. a perfectly written story about a girl's life, about breaking up and the transition! it truly inspired me!

i think il post some of my fave parts here! :D

: :what a day: :

i went to sch this am! for our sch's own review session! i went there hoping to see him... or even catch a glimpse of that certain face that's been in my mind lately... but he wasn't there... *sigh*

anyweiz, i went there and sat wif them without even paying the fee for the review! lolz anyweiz, i wudn't bother anymore coz he's not there reviewing wif the others... i wish i cud see him now... i wanted to tok to him... i dunno... but i juz have this feeling... like im pining for him... *sigh*

on to other cheerful topics! i am sooo glad that there's a 7-11 near our sch! lolz we went there during break time and "self serve" ourselves wif food, hotdogs, breads, slushies, drinks and lotsa others! then we juz went to the cashier and paid for whatever we took or made. it's fun~ lolz then we didn't eat much lunch coz we were still full~ break time then after 1 hr, lunch already! lolz but i won't be there anymore next week... im not goin to continue for the review and it was good that i didn't paid for it yet! although my mom already gave me the money! lol

omigosh!!! i haven't memorized the poem yet!!! and our teacher's goin to test each of us if we already memorized it!!! this monday!!! and it's like.. long.. 100 lines, 2 pages long... *groans* oh god... she's so cruel.. she juz gave the copy to us last wednesday! oh well... il promise my self il memorize it in one day! and one day it will be! yea ryt...